Some Frank Things

It's been a week since I re-opened my tumblr and start doing some things there. Because I don't feel like doing anything, maybe I'll share some points regarding my acceptance to Padjadjaran University.

First of all, I am really grateful for not having to worry over SMUP result or whether I have to start following UNPAR timeline or not. But I do not deny that I am also disappointed that I was not accepted in the University of Indonesia; yea, we know that UI is like the best State University in Indonesia and UI college students are more vocal than other universities. But I am disappointed, frankly speaking, more because I can't join UI MUN Club.

Yes, disappointed because I can not join an "UKM" (Unit Kegiatan Mahasiswa). Silly? Yes, but it's my life, so get lost with your "objective" judgment.

And believe me, it still stings when I heard that some certain people (not some certain others who deserves a seat in UI) got into UI and has the chance to join the MUN Club [and maybe won't even bother to see what MUN is like].

However, I started to think around and see whether it's really an apocalypse. Surprisingly, it is not! I onced thought, "Dang! I really wanna join UI MUN Club!" but now I can say, "Ok, there isn't any MUN Club in UNPAD. Let's make it happen!". And for this wonderful change of mind, I thank God for recovering me, and building up my confidence. I noticed that I got arrogant as time goes by, pretty much like when I arrogantly challenged God (but I am not, this time), specifically arrogant as a change maker. I began to decrease my sympathy (even to myself) and cynically criticize anything that passed me. My mindset returned rebellious and I am ready to face the world; the new page of life before me.

So hopefully, I can be a real change maker and change things to the way I want them to be. If I haven't heard of official UNPAD MUN Club (only UNPAD for MUN blog), then I'll create it! As I can not go to HNMUN '11 and '12 and GMUN '11, I'll go to '13 and '12, respectively! As I sucked at debating, then I'll try to hone my criticism in Varsity level! If people stop believing, then I [through love] will turn those expectations into goals! When people sat and mourn, I'll broaden my shoulders and bear the cross! P-R-O-L-I-F-E-R-A-T-I-O-N! C-H-A-N-G-E-M-A-K-E-R! G-O-D-S-P-E-E-D!