Rewind?

A decision was made

a decision was betrayed

a decision was put

a decision was lifted

I recognized the heat

and also the beat

though I know nothing of the limit

of my last will in times of dying

former glories came on sight

as my mind was sun-bright

and my hands were gilded

with a price I voluntarily paid

to wet my eyes with dry tears

A trustee I seek

and trusted ones I came to

Seeking answers through my questions

and salvation through my contemplations

Yet none could find one

if they're in the same desperation as I do

And now, as the sea level rises

and the moon, not any other planet, succumbs

I believe I could see the one should come

and understand the pain should I bear

Just a button to press

a delicate button I never pressed

with an arrow head facing back

and a thin line by the edge of the head

Thus perhaps I would find

my story, which unlike history

could repeat itself with a single touch of a finger

Well, should I press my chance?

I believe not

for when my finger hovered on the very button

I could see the horror that awaits near the mourn

and when I touched the very button slightly

I could feel the warmth of hell before me

Only fools return to hell after experiencing once

and even though I was a fool after all these and those

I believe I'm not fool enough to return

So, bid a farewell now and to hear the wedding bells I'm waiting now

I know that strangers don't give permissions

nor enemies, nor foes

Nevertheless, a blockhead I am

thus a permission shall come to you

as I rest assured beyond the gates

far, far away from the feast

is where the home of the beast

A permission had been given

a permission shall not be taken

a permission had been released

a permission shall not be kept

Live long and prosperous

O, happy couple of the world

blessed are you, for entwining your hands

both of you, the deep sea and the radiant moon